Finding My Way Back to the Artist Within: A Journey of Rediscovery
Life has a way of leading us down unexpected paths, sometimes steering us away from our deepest passions and dreams. As I reflect on my journey from an aspiring artist and writer to a healthcare professional, I’m reminded of the delicate balance between responsibility and staying true to our creative souls.
The Dreams We Put on Hold
When I was younger, my heart beat with the rhythm of creativity. Paint brushes and notebooks were my constant companions, each stroke and word a testament to the artist I hoped to become. But like many others, I faced the pragmatic choice between pursuing my artistic dreams and ensuring financial stability for my future family.
The decision seemed clear at the time: trade in my artist’s palette for a more conventional path. I pursued a bachelor’s degree in healthcare and began climbing the corporate ladder, telling myself this was the responsible choice.
The Cost of Conformity
Marriage, children, and career advancement filled my days with both joy and exhaustion. The healthcare world demanded more and more of my energy, often leaving me feeling depleted. In those moments of corporate fatigue, I would occasionally steal away to my hidden art supplies, like reuniting with an old friend.
These brief creative interludes became my secret sanctuary. A mixed media project here, a watercolor painting there – small acts of rebellion against the structured life I had chosen. But real life, with its endless responsibilities and demands, always pulled me back.
Breaking Point and Breakthrough
The breaking point came during my master’s degree studies. Burning the candle at both ends, I found myself facing panic attacks, feeling like a fractured version of myself. It was in this dark moment that I discovered art journaling, a practice that would become my path back to wholeness.
The Healing Power of Creative Expression
In that art journaling class, surrounded by others who shared my love for creativity, I began to piece myself back together. Each page became a canvas for processing my emotions, fears, and hopes. Through this practice, I rediscovered something crucial: my artistic expression wasn’t just a hobby – it was as essential as breathing. A friend had aslo recommended a wonderful book by Sarah Ban Breathnach called, Something More: Excavating Your Authentic Self. This was an amazing book that was very uplifing and motivational…helping me on my journey to rediscover me and things I had forgotten.
Embracing Both Worlds
Now I understand that we don’t have to choose between responsibility and passion. Writing and art aren’t just leisure activities; they’re vital tools for survival in our challenging world. They fill my cup when life drains it, provide solace when the world feels overwhelming, and restore my spark when it dims.
Finding Balance in the In-Between
The truth is, we don’t have to completely abandon our practical lives to honor our creative spirits. Sometimes, it’s in the small moments – a quick sketch during lunch break, a few written lines before bed – that we can reconnect with our artistic selves.
The Journey Home
This journey has taught me that returning to our creative roots isn’t about regret or what could have been. It’s about recognizing that these passions are integral parts of who we are. They’re not just dreams we once had; they’re essential elements of our well-being.
When I paint now, or when I write, I’m not just creating – I’m coming home to myself. Every brush stroke and every word helps heal the parts of me that get worn down by daily life. It’s a reminder that while we may need to make practical choices, we should never completely let go of what makes our souls sing.
Remember, it’s never too late to reclaim the parts of yourself you’ve set aside. Sometimes, the very thing we need to thrive has been waiting patiently on a shelf, gathering dust but never losing its power to transform and heal us.
Jen M. is a healthcare pro by day, creative powerhouse by night! With a passion for leadership, empathy, and intentional living, she’s spent years making a difference in healthcare and non-profits. When she’s not fostering meaningful connections, you’ll find her covered in paint and glue, running JF Craft Corner, her go-to blog for DIY magic. She also co-runs The Heart of Mindful Living blog and podcast, helping others refresh their minds and nurture their souls. Jen believes true leadership starts with kindness—and maybe a little glitter.
